Manusia Berharga // Created To Be Loved

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“You are created to be loved.”

Dan sampailah disaat gue duduk santai dihari sabtu nonton The Shack, setelah melihat postingan Ce Dewi tentang film ini. Jujur aja gue beberapa kali merinding dan melongo pas nonton film ini saking nyambungnya ke kehidupan kita sehari-hari. Salah satu hal yang gue dapat dari film ini adalah betapa kita itu sangat amat berharga dimata Tuhan. Gue seketika gue keinget bokap. Why? Bokap itu jarang nanya gue butuh apa, tapi beliau selalu noticed sendiri dan kaboom, apa yang gue butuhkan pun terpenuhi. Beliau itu saking pedulinya sama gue, sampai beliau seringkali pastikan kalo keadaan gue aman-aman aja. Iya, gue sadar kalo Tuhan dan bokap gue itu ga bisa dibandingkan tapi in a sense, gue bisa ngerasain segimananya Tuhan sayang sama gue itu sama kayak segimana bokap sayang, perhatikan dan peduli sama hidup gue. Kalo mau dipikir-pikir, apa sih yang udah gue kasiin ke bokap sampe beliau bisa se-sayang itu sama gue? Yang ada justru gue mulu yang terima segala sesuatu dari beliau. Beliau curahkan rasa sayangnya tanpa expect gue bakal ngelakuin hal yang sama ke beliau. Bayangin aja, Papa dibumi aja bisa sesayang itu, apalagi Bapa di Surga.

Okay there're times –entah jarang atau sering, entah sepintas atau kebawa pikiran–dimana ada hal yang membuat kita kinda questioning God, “sebenarnya Tuhan sayang ga sih sama gue?atau Kenapa sih gue harus alamin ini?”

Bokap gue adalah sosok yang super istimewa didalam kehidupan gue dan kehilangan beliau tentunya merupakan pukulan terbesar yang pernah gue alami. Kalau lu sempat baca postingan gue sebelumnya, gue sempat ngebahas betapa bahagianya gue ketika gue lahir ke dunia ini dan Tuhan memilih gue jadi bagian keluarga yang gue punya sekarang. Udah lebih dari sepuluh bulan gue enggak bisa lagi ngeliat bokap, denger suaranya ataupun manja-manjaan ke beliau. Beliau sudah menghadap ke Yang Empunya Hidup. Pertanyaannya: Suzan sudah bisa overcome kehilangan papa? Well, bohong banget kalo gue bilang gue udah bisa overcome sedih gue sejak hari dimana beliau pergi. The truth is, I’ve been tryin my best. Jalani hidup sehari-hari mungkin terasa biasa aja –karena toh gue anak rantau, dari dulu ga satu kota sama orangtua jadi kadang gue ngerasanya bokap masih ada, cuman lagi beda kota aja. Kemudian diwaktu yang lain, gue sadar kalo beliau udah ga ada lagi. Yang gue alamin -kehilangan salah satu orang tua obviously terlihat menyedihkan. Well yeah it is sad. Tapi apa Tuhan jahat? ABSOLUTELY NOT. Gue percaya bahwa semua skenario yang terjadi di hidup gue sampai detik gue ngetik ini adalah skenario yang terbaik.

“Pain has a way of doing that to us. It is left unresolved; you can forget what you were created for.”

Seringkali kita lebih fokus ke masalahnya dibanding Sang Sutradara. Masalah hidup yang ada seringkali buat kita lupa kalau we are in the center of God’s love and purpose. Well menurut gue manusiawi aja kalau kita punya kecenderungan untuk lebih berfokus sama apa yang ada didepan mata: masalah. Tapi ayo yuk kita semua belajar untuk selalu mengingatkan diri sendiri bahwa kita itu sangat amat berharga dimataNya.

Kemudian muncullah pertanyaan–yang gue sendiri pernah beberapa kali dapat ketika cerita-cerita santai sama temen-temen: Ah, kalau Tuhan sayang sama gue, kenapa coba hidup gue kayak begini? –dan seringkali gue menjelaskan dengan semua macam penjelasan dari yang terdengar klise sampai yang realistis. Tapi gue seneng banget waktu denger kata-kata di The Shack:
I can work incredible good out of unspeakable tragedies, but doesn’t mean I orchestrate the tragedies. Grace doesn’t depend on suffering to exist, but where there is suffering, you will find grace in many facets and colours.” 

Gue personally belajar beberapa hal dari kalimat diatas:
   1.     Kalau ada masalah dalam hidup kita, jangan langsung salahkan Tuhan. sometimes
     emang kita sendiri yang menyebabkan masalah jadi ada. 
   2.    Selalu ada kasih karunia didalam setiap kejadian didalam hidup kita
   3.   Percayakan hidup kita sepenuhnya sama Tuhan, Sang Sutradara yang tiada tandingannya

Ngelakuinnya gampang ga? Well, dekat sama Dia, dan selalu ingetin diri lo sendiri that He’s especially fond of you dan belajar bersyukur! Namanya manusia ya –kagak sempurna, ada jatuh bangunnyatapi bukan berarti kita berhenti berusaha. Kalau kata Sarayu di The Shack, Wild, wonderful and perfectly in process”. So just don’t be so hard on yourself. Berhubung kita semua -lo dan gue-– bukan  manusia sempurna, ayo nikmati proses belajar inisambil selalu ingat kalo Dia sangat amat sayang sama kita semua!

MADURA, Indonesia

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A short getaway to a beautiful island next to Surabaya called Madura. Despite the fact that I was kinda worried at first because of those stereotypes and that I never made a trip with motorbike before, I decided to join my friends anyway cause the places are recommended and look good! So I gave it a shot! It came to my surprise that the infrastructure is well-developed. Oh and it turned out that the local were actually very nice -dang stereotypes!! First motorbike trip and first time visit the island. It was one heck of experience I'll defo never forget. Clink the link below to watch the full video of my trip! ENJOY MADURA!





2017

Coldplay Live in Singapore: CALL IT MAGIC!

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I was on my bed and scrolling down my facebook feed when I suddenly notice SGAGs post (pict below):

  

I, then, just texted my sister who happens to live in Singapore asking whether the rumour is true or not. And she had no idea.

Couple of days later my sist texted me saying that it is true that COLDPLAY is coming to Singapore and that Ill need Citibank credit card to buy the presale ticket. Hours after that I read the news that the ticket sold out in a good two hours.

I was like Okay, maybe I meant to watch their concert only once. Maybe X&Y world tour 2006 is enough, and  I tried not to think about it anymore even though I really cant help myself from thinking.


About 20 days after SGAGs post which around 25th November 2016, my sistas call woke me up like early in the morning, and I can hear excitement from her voice. She was like HEY, DO YOU STILL WANNA SEE COLDPLAY? MY FRIEND CAN HELP YOU IF YOU WANT TO! and I was just like LIKE ABSOLUTELY YEAH! Any category will do me, and she hung up the call after asking me to pray so that her friend can nail the ticketing traffic.

*two hours later*
RECEIVED MY E-TICKET ON MY EMAIL!
I was on cloud nine!

I flew to Singapore just 2 days before the concert -29th March 2017. For the last 2 days I found myself hard to sleep due to the excitement. I really couldnt sleep like until 3 oclock in the morning just having a flashback to COLDPLAY’s X&Y world tour concert back in July 2006, and imagining what itd be like this time. I was so pumped about the concert that weekend.

D-DAY! 31ST MARCH 2017
The concert was at 8pm so I spent some hours sending my niece and nephew to school and shopping with my sista before off to the concert. I was super excited that I was smiling from ear to ear the whole day in the bus stop, on the bus, mrt, basically like everywhere. My sista was like "Hey you look way too happy as if you're about to get married ". Well, I was defo so happy cause I was about to watch my all time fave band for the second time —after their X&Y world tour in Singapore back in 2006.


The gate opened at 6pm but I off to the venue Kallang Indoor Stadium at 3pm. It was pouring rain but I couldnt care less. I arrived in Kallang MRT 15 mins later and head straight to the Stadium. The first place I wanted to find was the official merchandise booth, and found it right away ! It was drizzling and the line to the booth got no roof but again, I couldnt care less. I got myself a hoodie & tote bag *and just got bankrupt straight away. lol *



I was on my way to find the gate when I heard COLDPLAY doing the soundcheck. I got closer to one of the gate and can see Chris Martin! The excitement was palpable!! WHOOP! I finally got myself in the line the gate. The gate opened exactly 6pm *so punctual. Hands down*. It took less than 15 mins from the security check, ticket scanning, LED wristband and pin collecting until I finally found my seat.


The show started exactly at 8:00 pm with O Mio Babbino Caro by Maria Callas was played in the background. My level of happiness rose to ecstatic when COLDPLAYChris Martin, Guy Berryman, Jonny Buckland and Will Champion finally came out.  I cant help myself but jumping and dancing when they performing A Head Full of Dreams and followed with Yellow one of my all-time fave song. It was so, so beautiful. They continued the showed by performing Every Teardrop is a Waterfall, The Scientist, Birds, Paradise, Always in My Head, Magic, Everglow, Clocks, Midnight, Charlie Brown, Hymn for the Weekend, their biggest single of all time Fix You, covering David Bowies Heroes, Viva La Vida (click here for the short vid), Adventure of a Lifetime, Kaleidoscope, Dont Panic (with Will Champion as the lead vocal), 'Till Kingdom Come, Amazing Day (which really explain the day), Something Just Like This, A Sky Full of Stars and Up & Up as the closing to this amazing concert. I love it when Chris Martin thanked all of us for spending our money on the airplane tickets and everything in order to see them that night; and on all the merchandises. He did thank all of us for that.

-The Opening of the concert: AHFOD-

I cant tell which part is my fave cause everything was so, so exceptional and amazing. I didnt want to miss the show; I just wanted to witness and enjoy everything instead of taking selfie and updating on social media and everything. I did take several short videos which in total like 8 minutes out of 120mins of the show [and most of it was shaky]. Not a single selfie was taken. I just wanted to enjoy the moment. I literally sang every single song, like theres no tomorrow *lol*.  I danced the night away.
 
Every minute of the concert was so magical. Those euphoric moments when COLDPLAY first came, when the whole stadium (approximately 50,000 people) cheering, singing and dancing together; XYLOBAND (the super-cool LED wristband that synced to a radio transmitter, allowing them to be manipulated in time with the music, creating vast rivers of coloured light); the fireworks, stunning sound and lighting. Everything. Everything was really a one heck of experience.

Despite the fact that this was not my first time seeing COLDPLAY, I was in awe of it still. I really cant find the words to describe the feeling of being at the concert and getting to hear all of my favorite songs that has been inspiring me for years live, in a stadium filled with twinkling lights. I did feel emotional. Ah man! I certainly wouldnt think twice to see these guys in the future and cross off my bucket list for the third time!

THANK YOU COLDPLAY
I  W A S  ( A N D  S T I L L)   E C S T A T I C !

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